Baby #2 after 11 years

After 11 years, I decided to have another child. Yana was born in November of last year and has become the Apple of my eye. Her older brother is so helpful and loving towards his little sister. One thing I didn't plan on was the changes 11 years had created. There is so much STUFF for babies now!

When I had my son at the ripe old age of 19, I was broke and in a bad relationship. When did he start to sit? I don't remember. Crawl? I don't remember. Walk, talk? I shamefully, don't remember. I remember struggling to try to maintain the little we had. After leaving my sons father, I worked at a factory 3rd shift to have money for us while we stayed with my mom. It wasn't easy. I don't remember his milestones. I'm an awful mom, I know. That's why I didn't have any more children...until Yana.

When my husband (married for 2 years, "dating" for 8) and I discussed having another child, it was not without rules. He has a daughter with his ex wife whom lives in another state. He has been without her since she was 3 and is not 14. We both have bad issues with children and ex's. We HAD to be prepared for the child before the child arrived. I didn't have even a carseat for my son. The first thing we bought was a bottle gift set in 2009. Then I bought a bassinet/playpen in fall 2009. We started trying to get pregnant in December of 2009 and since the last time I got pregnant, I hadn't tried, it was frustrating it didn't happen the first try. I know, its ridiculous to think it would especially since I'de been on birth control since having my son. I started to think it wasn't going to happen since it was now January and nothing... Sadly, tragedy struck. My father passed away January 23, 2010 unexpectedly of lung cancer. I was devastated. A child was the farthest thing from my mind.

It was the beginning of February and we had finally been able to afford the creation and burial at a military cemetery in Mass. Life was slowly getting back to normal, but still wasn't thinking about pregnancy. One day in early March, I had stopped at a store before work to look for work clothes when 3 people had been exceptionally pleasant towards me. I don't know what it was, but something about that made me think to take a pregnancy test. I picked one up on my way home, got home, waited to have enough for a sample, and ANXIOUSLY awaited to lines. They appeared very faint so I was unsure. I asked my coworkers (who had found out she was pregnant in January) and she said "You're Pregnant!" OH MY GOD!! I was oozing with extreme happiness and glee! Yes, GLEE! I told my son first who said, "cool." Then I told my friends downstairs, then my mom. Hubby was 4th ONLY because he was sleeping and wouldn't appreciate me barging in to say I'm pregnant.

I think he....no, I KNOW he was in denial. I took 4 or 5 tests, all positive. Then made 2 doctor appointments with 2 different PB's who confirmed. I think he was afraid. I don't blame him, so was I!

The pregnancy went well up to the last 6 weeks or so when my blood pressure got high. I felt so bad!! I think I failed to mention that by this point I was about 320lbs at 5'5". It made for a hard time.

Yana was in the breech position, as was my son. This new doctor tried to do the external version (manually turn the baby from outside the womb), but she too, was stubborn. A cesarian was scheduled for 11/5/10. I was hoping to have a Halloween baby, but that didn't happen.

The 5th came and I was scared. I had a horrible experience at the last hospital with anesthesia and surgery and I was 230lbs then! The doctor came in to prep me and my veins didn't cooperate for the IV. Once again I felt like this was the worst experience ever! I was then brought into the OR to do my spinal....

That didn't go well. At all. The anesthesiologist was stellar, but I think I had too much padding on my back to make this an easy deal. It took 7 tries and me saying, "if this doesn't take this time, I want to be put under!" To make the spinal take. Once that was done, my body was numb and the process began. I don't know how long it took, but after awhile, my sweet baby girl was brought into this world by Dr. Tucker Kuney.

Recovery was amazing! I loved being at Cooley Dickinson! I loved my nurses and midwife and Dr. I couldn't have had a better experience.